David

Blast from the past- TOTAL RECALL

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Tue, 05 May 2009 06:32:17 GMT

WOW that's pretty much everything i look for in an arnold schwarzenegger movie...including three boobed mutants. now i know many of you might have scene this particular movie when it first came out in 1990, but i have avoided it for 19 years, and i just couldn't wait to make it an even 20... boy have i been denying my body heavenly tidbits of cinema magic. i mean its not till you see arnold as a fat woman with an exploding head that you realize just how great of range that guy has.

Attention LiveJournalers

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Wed, 07 Nov 2007 08:37:19 GMT

Luke rocks...independently from his rockage, check out the new icon...

hey look at me

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Wed, 22 Aug 2007 21:19:28 GMT

It is very important that people see my new user pick... it is completely plagiarized with no author credited... take that "the man"

Brought my guitar back to monterey last time i went home.

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Fri, 15 Jun 2007 22:25:18 GMT

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

Brought my

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Fri, 15 Jun 2007 22:24:20 GMT

Cyanide & Happiness @ Explosm.net

I LOVE SATURDAYS

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Sat, 24 Mar 2007 23:10:04 GMT

Man i love weekends. I slept for 10 hours last night, and it is 4 o'clock and i still am not wearing pants.

I survived

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Thu, 15 Feb 2007 08:41:42 GMT

I survived VD.

geese this time of year is depressing.

I HATE VALENTINES DAY

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Wed, 14 Feb 2007 17:44:21 GMT

i hate valentines day, i vote we move it to the 29th of February so we only need to see it once every four years.

Progress report

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Sat, 10 Feb 2007 06:53:41 GMT

Five Beers in...funny problem hasn't gone away...guess i need more

>:(

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Sat, 10 Feb 2007 05:10:29 GMT

if i had a punching bag, there would be sand all over my apartment

Names have not been changed, maybe one or two of the people i'm talking about might even see it

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Sat, 03 Feb 2007 23:21:20 GMT

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Ok, so I have been told that writing out your thoughts is a good way to come to important conclusions. So here goes nothing… Today is February 3^rd, 11 days till the most depressing day of the year, and I’m feeling it pretty bad. I’ve been spending a lot of time with Shannon because she is my capstone partner, and also, I feel comfortable calling her one of my close friends. Which makes having a crush on her particularly irksome. There are so many things that I love about her, that make her just about the most perfect woman I have ever met, but she has this boyfriend. Josh. I’ve only met him once, he’s physically attractive, tall and strong, but he doesn’t seem like a nice guy. Not at all like Shannon. That’s just a first impression, but I stand by it. Everything I know about him is that he is constantly calling Shannon and telling her she shouldn’t do this or shouldn’t do that, and yadayadayada, Shannon does it anyway J. I know he is controlling and jealous, when Shannon is on the phone with him she avoids telling him that she is hanging out with me. Josh lives in Georgia so they don’t see each other often. I wouldn’t be surprised if he has cheated on Shannon, I have no evidence, but he is so worried about Shannon that he could be projecting his infidelity on her. I also wouldn’t be surprised if Shannon has in the past gave him a reason to be jealous. I want to tell her that she deserves someone better than him, but I don’t know if my judgment is being impeded by my feelings for her. If she loves him and he is an ok person, I don’t want her to be unhappy. Also, a few weeks ago I was over at her house and Laura mentioned how she didn’t really like Josh, and it really offended Shannon, I don’t want that to be me.

Two days ago I went over to Shannon’s place and we had a few drinks, as usual I was fairly sober (probably just around the limit) but Shannon was definitely drunk. I bring this up because it lead me into a really awkward position. I wish I could say Shannon threw herself at me and I was faced with a moral dilemma, but unfortunately the only dilemma I was faced with that horrible feeling jealousy brings. While Shannon was drunk she decided that she wanted to go down and play videogames in Mitch’s room, I of course followed. There weren’t any seats available and so Shannon very happily climbed into Josh’s (different Josh) lap. And pretty much did the kind of things that I would give anything for, one arm around him, head on his shoulder just typical ways a girl makes a guy go crazy. Josh mentioned that his arm wasn’t feeling good, and Shannon gave him a back rub. Flirting was defiantly in the air. I was seeing red. All I wanted to do scream. But of course I don’t. I just sit there and watch. Josh leaves not that long (might be my imagination but he might have been trying to avoid Shannon’s advances). This Josh is a great guy. He’s nice, smart, and overall a good person. And I was ready to hate him. That makes me feel even worse.

I want to tell Shannon how I feel, maybe all she is waiting for is someone to tell her how much they love her, and she will leave the stupid Josh, but my fear is that she has no romantic interest in me whatsoever. Clearly she flirts when she is drunk, and the fact that she wasn’t flirting with me must mean that I am just a friend.

It’s even more complicated because regardless of if I tell her how I feel, we are capstone partners, and that means if it gets awkward we need to still be around each other when it would be better to have a day apart. At the end of this semester Shannon is probably going to leave. At the end of next semester I’m going to be leaving. So if I’m going to have any kind of relationship with her, I need to tell her now.

And that’s just the girl of my dreams, there is another girl, in my head. Ashley is a girl I get along with well. She is cute too; unfortunately I don’t think we could ever have a long lasting relationship. She is shallow, materialistic, and whinny, (I think it’s all an act, but it’s still I can’t see myself being able to love her). But like I said, she is cute. And what is more, she broke up with her boyfriend, and I have always flirted with her (which she seems to like) but since she broke up with her boyfriend she seems particularly receptive, and reciprocal. I think I had a date with her too. I was in the neighborhood of her work about the time she got off work, so I went in and asked if she wanted to go grab some coffee, she apparently doesn’t drink coffee but did agree to go for a milkshake and some fries. We talked and what not, when the bill came it was clear that she expected me to pay which I did without a problem. The thing is, I’m really lonely, and if I can have any relationship with a girl, even one that I don’t see a long term relationship with, part of me wants to go for it. That could mean I’m shallow. Could mean I’m just ready to not be longing all the time…

And as if two girls on my mind wasn’t enough, there is another girl I know. I don’t know what my relationship is with her is. I don’t talk to her often and really everything I know about her is information I have hijacked from her livejournal and myspace. I don’t really know if I was just attracted to her or if it was because I knew she was having a hard time, and I am the kind of person who wants to fix everything. But I KNOW she has a great since of humor, I KNOW she has great taste in music, I KNOW she plays videogames, I KNOW she loves sports, I KNOW she is brilliant (taking calculus for the fun of it…and not low level calc, like multivariable shit), and if being really mathmaticly smart isn’t cool enough, she is a writer, and judging by her LJ and Myspace blogs she is good at it. And it’s not like I am just stalking her on myspace, I do talk to her, and we are friendly. She has a lot of emotional baggage, and I think what she really needs is a friend. And I think that’s all I want in her as well. But I don’t know how to become her friend, I don’t see her that often, and it would be really weird to just show find her and be like “hi, I know we aren’t really friends but I thought you were a lot like me and maybe you want to talk”. So that’s pretty much my world with women right now. A woman I love, a woman I could have a good time with for a few months, and a woman who would almost assuredly be a very close friend… so it’s my move now I guess.

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Mon, 28 Aug 2006 18:09:48 GMT

My life

Monday: Work 9am-11am, Stat 250 12:00pm-1:50pm, Hcom 227 2:00pm-3:50pm
Tuesday Bio 345 10am-11:30, Work 11:30-5
Wednesday: SL 8:30am-11:30am, Stat 250 12pm-1:50, Hcom 227 2pm-3:50pm, ESSP400 4-6pm
Thursday: Bio 345 10am-11:25am, Work 11:30-2:45, Bio 345L 3pm-6pm
Friday: ESSP 384S 9:00am-2:50pm

oh also, i'm looking to get an internship...so no sleep for me!!

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Tue, 27 Jun 2006 20:09:14 GMT

New Icon, i think it is great

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Sat, 24 Jun 2006 08:58:43 GMT

Girls make me feel funny. They are all like butterflys and walking sticks. And i don't think i need to explain that metaphore. so, lets take an internet poll, i like girl, girl has shown no interest in me, but currently is single. should i A) talk to girl. B) dont bother with girl out of league. C) have another shot of vodka (this is not an intirely sober posting) and then leave drunken myspace messages?

Money Problems

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Mon, 03 Apr 2006 20:03:25 GMT

Ok, so i applied to work at Petsmart, hopefully i get the job, i'm not realy worried about getting it, because they didn't even ask for refrences or previous work experiances. but heres the problem i am faced with.
a job like petsmart i can't expect to be payed more than 8.25 an hour.
heres where the math starts, 25 hours a week=100 hours a month=$825 a month. assuming a 25% tax that is 618.75 take home. minus 425/month for rent=193.75. $50/month cable and electricity = 143.75, $100/month for grocerys (if i am good and but cheep food that doesn't spoil i might be able to bring that down to 80 but i doubt i can do that) so i am down to $43.75 a full tank of gas cost me $30, i probably would go through about 3 tanks every two months=$45 month. paycheck= -1.25, point is, when my mom stops helping me out with rent...i'm up a creek. (any ideas on decreasing the red, maybe even into black?) and second job is unfisable with my school schedual.

random thought, how come sad songs with happy beats are in?

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Wed, 22 Mar 2006 09:07:47 GMT

James Blunt's 'you're beutiful' is just about the most depressing song i have ever heard. What the hell kind of song is that? "i want to tell you about this girl i met once, i realy loved her, but i only saw her once, and then we never saw eachother again' not only is it sad, but its a little creepy. how can you fall in love with someone you just saw across the room?

I like this quote.

"and the very people who have today kissed thy feet, tomorrow at the faintest sign from me will rush to heap up the embers of thy fire" - fyodor dostoevsky

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Sat, 14 Jan 2006 02:08:54 GMT

Everyone who has my AIM address should check out my profile (just go to info). It sad the no one ever, EVER, learns from history

Disturbing

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Thu, 15 Dec 2005 07:33:51 GMT

Ok i pulled this from one of thoughs chain letters on myspace. But this was the discription of people born in september. I would say about 90-95% of it could be used to describe me...

SEPTEMBER:
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people's mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal and always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves sports, leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic. sexy but has brains.

Of course thats how phycics and medians make there money, cast a wide net your bound to catch somthing, but still its weird i think.

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Tue, 29 Nov 2005 07:49:54 GMT

Jenna made me an icon and it rocks, and she rocks, and yeah pretty much go jenna.

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Tue, 25 Oct 2005 04:02:25 GMT

DEAR INTERNET:
I need to find a new place to live in the monterey, seaside, marina, sandcity area sometime within the next couple months.
help me out here

i feel smart

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Wed, 17 Aug 2005 06:31:18 GMT

Your IQ Is 110

Your Logical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your Verbal Intelligence is Above Average
Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional
Your General Knowledge is Above Average

A Quick and Dirty IQ Test

Creepy

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Wed, 17 Aug 2005 06:12:05 GMT

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.

The World's Shortest Personality Test

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Tue, 02 Aug 2005 05:39:02 GMT

Dear Internet, Please refer to me as my super hero name Mr. Radioactive. If you would like a super hero name simply put your name down, tell me if i know you, and put your favorite fictional charicter down. i will come up with somthing

Man, I don't fit anywhere. My highest score is a D-

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Sun, 20 Feb 2005 09:32:06 GMT

You scored as Druid. The fury of the storm, the gentle strength of the morning sun, the cunning of the fox, the power of the bear-all these and more are at the druid's command. The druid however, claims no mastery over nature. That claim, she says, is the empty boast of the city dweller. The druid gains her power not by ruling nature but by being at one with it. To trespassers in a druid's sacred grove, to those who feel the druid's the distinction is overly fine.

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Druid

60%

Rogue

50%

Ranger

50%

Sorcerer

40%

Paladin

40%

Cleric

40%

Fighter

40%

Monk

40%

Wizard

30%

Barbarian

30%

Bard

10%

What DnD Class Are You?
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I'm unicorn/crab, maybe i'm a unirab.

david_wilson@csumb.edu — Tue, 11 Jan 2005 03:02:33 GMT

You scored as The Unicorn Clan. You are a member of the Unicorn Clan! You are proud of who you are and your roots, and have a strong need to help those around you. You enjoy to travel, seeing new sights and enjoying nature.

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The Crab Clan

78%

The Unicorn Clan

78%

The Dragon Clan

72%

Ronin

67%

The Mantis Clan

56%

The Phoenix Clan

56%

The Scorpion Clan

50%

The Crane Clan

50%

The Lion Clan

33%

What Legends of the Five Rings Clan are you?
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